My washing machine conked out yesterday. (I totally blame Aimee for living in the same country as me....she needs to move!!)
So I need to buy a new one. No big deal. It was old and over-due an upgrade anyway. I can afford a new one, so everything is just fine. Yay!
Except.... my mum bought me this one Back in the day when I was a poor single parent without a penny to my name (and despite the fact she was pretty hard up herself). She saved me from endless ENDLESS hand washing!
By the time I was earning a good salary and able to help her in return, it was pretty much too late I always wanted to take her away on holidays etc.... inject some well earned fun into her life (she has a life long desire to go to Disney Land/World/Whatever).... but her health wasn't good enough by then. I was able to help her out in smaller ways..... Sky TV, ipad, winter fuel bills, lots of meals out, ..... but it never felt like enough.
So yeah Not totally sure where I'm going with this
I know there are lots of people on here who have lost their mums, I know I'm not alone by any means. But it's really bloody shit isn't it? I feel too young to be an orphan!
For those of you not in the know, my mum died in April last year after a two-ish year cancer battle.....one I didn't seriously expect her to lose until 3 weeks before she did. (Talk to Ditty....she knows all about my ridiculous optimistic bubble tendencies).
I've been doing pretty well. Stupidly well for the first 6 months. Weirdly, worrying well! But it inevitably hit me in the end and the last 3 months have been a lot more challenging. Christmas was ok because I took Ditty's advice and left the country, New Year was harder but I got through it by being a grumpy sod and refusing to watch the fireworks.
But now I have Washing Machine Replacing Day to deal with. No one warned me about this one!
And the emotional stuff aside, it's REALLY DIFFICULT!! I genuinely think the internet is conspiring against me and wants to see me on my hands and knees, scrubbing me undergarments in the bathtub.
I have come close to buying two machines tonight.... the first promised me delivery in 5 days and after 15 minutes of navigating a particularly difficult shopping cart page, then informed me the first available date was Feb 23rd! Sod that! The second decided that my card number does not exist. It does. I can see it! It's right there!
So I'm giving up for the night. Washing Machine Replacement Day shall now be tomorrow.
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