Wonderful news Ditty and I'm sure you'll have a blast at Christmas  

 

I too firmly believe in the power of positive thought 

 

Glad poor Buttercup didn't have to put up with the indignity of you turning up knickerless  

I do seriously need to invest in some more knickers        I used to have loads & loads...   then all of a sudden I seem to have a knicker shortage 

 

 

& yes...   my parents have always had a life long type marraige..   but even I am in awe of their relationship now.

 

Haven't always got on with my Dad (worlds biggest understatement) but he's got alot of forgiveness for past wrongs from me for the way he is looking after my Mum now.   Every morning he tells her he loves her, that he loves looking after her...   every minute of every day he now spends looking after her, whether the practical stuff (housework hahahaha), medical stuff (he manages her meds, her appointments, he takes her temperature & blood pressure throughout the day, he makes her drink enough water, and forbids her from starting on the wine before 4pm )..  the emotional & spiritual stuff (There aren't enough words to express what he's done here)... 

 

little things like..   the only time he has got cross with her is when she wasn't waking him up in the night when she was awake.  He insists she does not lay awake at night on her own..    if she wakes up she has to wake him up, and if its not for a medical reason that she's woken, then he is straight downstairs to make a pot of tea & takes it up with the biscuit barrell).

 

Its weird..   but sometimes when I am with them I almost feel like I am intruding.

 

^^^ this is a good feeling!    He is why she is happy 

 

 

hahahahaha!

 

NO!

 

I will not be a knicker charity campaign!!!!

 

 

*imagines knicker based version of Live Aid Song* 

Yogi, Blizz, Tina...     

seriously Pengles...    Buttercup was waaaaay to interested in getting rapey with his wimmin this morning to care about my undercarraige 

Ducks..   turkey is not the way to convince him to embrace the traditional roast!!!

 

 

Nowt wrong with a nice bit of beef on christmas day 

ooops, I nearly missed that bit.

 

Yes, I am looking after myself.   Its a bit weird, I have the odd week when I am back to square one and am back to being at full on panic devastated mess again.  And there is no incident or reason why this happens...     last time I was fine, up at my Mums and all of a sudden this massive wave of grief just came over me & I fell apart.   In front of my Mum as well.     But it was ok..    she told me it was ok to cry etc...     that lasted a week or so, and i have been ok since.

 

I even coped with the girl going off to uni last month - I had wondered if that would trigger me falling apart, but quite the opposite -  I am ridiculously proud & happy that she is up in London, doing London & Uni..    living the life I have wanted for her since she was a baby! 

 

I miss her a bit..   but she is home regularly (mainly to see her cat...  twas a damned fine idea letting her have that kitten last year )

 

 

I've been able to post this thread today cos I have finally given in & allowed myself to...  well not hope so much, but relax a bit.   I am a bit scared by this..  it feels a bit like becoming complacent...   and when I think that I sort of make myself scared again.    Then I have a firm word with myself & tell myself to stop being a basket case 

 

 

Bottom line is..     there is no doubt that there will be plenty of time for grief & tears in the years to come (my mum, my dad... hell, everyone actually IS going to die at some point)...      I've got to stop hurting myself thinking about that & enjoy what we have at this point in time

Like I said before....they sound like stars. Gone through thier troubles but still solid. Marriage is taken quite lightly now IMO. Your parents are proof of a time gone by when commitment meant something.

You're not being complacent Ditty. You're getting it off your chest. That's a good thing. You can't keep things bottled up or you'd go crazy. Don't ever apologise for it. I know it sounds harsh but the world doesn't stop because a loved one is ill. Your daughter is off doing her own thing and you're right to be proud of her. 

Wise words and very true

This thread has made me smile my face off !x

I read that as DIRTY xmas knicker fund. 

 

Glad things seem to be on an even keel at the moment Ditts 

I'll start - here's my contribution.

 

 

Lovely to hear about your Mum doing well....long may it continue 

I love Buttercup 

Thats wonderful news Ditty - thank you for updating us 

I truly hope your Mum continues to feel well far beyond Christmas - and way into the future. She's a fighter!

Slinkeh!!!  

 

She's doing well isn't she?     

 

You know I couldn't have got through a lot of this without you!   thank you xxxxx

 

(but it ain't over yet...   so don't go thinking you're off duty      You can relax for a little while though )

& ta Rosie, Ells & Cinds.

 

 

 

*tries to ignore the knickers from Sooz with the cow coming out of the bum hole* 

Good news that she's feeling better as can be Ditty 

She bloomin well is!  Go dittymammy! ! xx

aww Ditty - so pleased to read this  and so pleased for you  - many thanks for the update -I was wondering how she is

Lolled at the knicker bit the mind boggles

hope Ickle ditty is getting on Ok in Uni

they reckon the chemo drug she is on (I can't for the life of me remember its name...   its by Eli Lilly) is revolutionising the outcomes & longevity of lung cancer patients.

 

even the rash reaction she had..  though distressing for her...  wasn't all bad.   they reckon the worse the rash the more its working.

 

She is very glad she didn't get "itchy bum" though.    One of the nurses at the chemo unit warned her she might get it..  when they asked what she meant she replied "an arsehole so itchy you will be wanting a wire brush to scratch it with" 

awww ditty just read the Uni bit  - good for her and you have every right to be proud of her

I remember that distinctly - the one part of chemo that I dreaded 

  I am ridiculously proud of her 

   oh Pengy!!!   You got it!!!   poor poor you!      I can't think of much worse than "itchy bum"

 

great news, happy for you hun..

I had my chemo through a hickman line (in my chest) and they'd always warn me the itchy bum stuff was coming through and seconds later I'd be ready to kill the nurse  

oh!  hahahahahaha!

 

and ((hugs)) ..   but mainly laughing here 

and thank you to the other peeps that have popped in whilst Pengy & I have been discussing "itchy bum"

 

apologies for the uncouth topic...    its all part of the cancer sense of humour (apparently)   

Lovely thread Ditty, great news  You have all been through a terrible worrying time. Onwards and upwards 

Glad she's still doing so well Ditty

You'd know all about itchy bum with a baby cow in your pants ......................moooooooooo.

Ditty - that's great news - I do hope and pray it continues to be good!

thank you scatts..   I hope your Mum is keeping well too xxxx 

  that sounds so wrong..   & yet I can't seem to actually make a proper innuendo out of it 

Nor me ....................I rather wish I hadn't posted it now

lies!   

 

 

(I do actually quite like those knickers though )

Ditty I'm delighted to read your news you must have been through so much and I'm so pleased your mum is doing well, long may it continue Great to hear about the doggy too keep us posted when you can