Last night Siavash informed Big Brother that he wanted to leave the House so that he could go and apologise to his ex-girlfriend for his behaviour with Noirin. This morning he went to the Diary Room again (and again) to give Big Brother an update.
"Biggie," he said, by way of greeting.
"Hello Siavash. How are you today?" asked Big Brother.
"Good, good," he mumbled. "Had a good sleep. Still, to be honest with you, not sure which way to go. I'm thinking about it and trying to see the positive sides [of staying]. I'm not enjoying it with the whole thing in the back of my mind. The fun is gone."
Big Brother reminded Siavash that if he stays until the final, he can put across his side of the story to Davina, but if he leaves, he won't get that chance.
"I never do stuff and run away from the consequences," he explained, "but it will be another episode of upsetting the people concerned."
"If you leave the day before the final, you'll never know if you could have won," pointed out Big Brother.
"Yeah..." agreed Siavash. "But that's the thing - if I stay, then when I leave it's a half-****d apology. I will never know whether if I had left the day before, things would be different. Which one is more important to me?"
Big Brother encouraged him to think over the pros and cons: "Over the years, Big Brother has become very accustomed to housemates telling Big Brother they want to leave the House. Big Brother wants you to know that on the whole, the majority of people who leave via the back door come to regret this decision. Big Brother is informing you of this so you are aware of all the facts."
"People come into this House for different reasons," replied Siavash. "Not to say I'm cooler or better, but I don't need the whole interview with Davina, the glorious moment. The moment of glory don't mean **** all to me. To me, the moment of glory is when I do something that is right."
After much more discussion, Siavash decided to go away and have yet another think about what to do.
An hour later, he returned to the Diary Room and told Big Brother, "I feel much better. I hope I don't regret this, but I will stay and see how far the public will take me."
We'll soon see...
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although she's a worthy winner too.
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