OK, I'm back...bleary-eyed and feeling a little foolish 
but a lot calmer.
It was my own fault, really; I should have noticed the warning signs, but I went ahead and opened the box and let the demons out.
I spent this morning with my counsellor, who was, as usual, very sensible and helpful (despite being woken at 3 am by a drunken mess wailing down the phone at her...) and this afternoon in my back garden, doing some vigorous meditation with a bokken (much the amazement of my neighbour's 10-year old daughter, who is now convinced that I'm either some sort of Amazon dragonslayer, or completely bonkers
)
The demons are back where they belong, the wheels are back on my wagon and my chi is balanced...normal service has been restored
I need to apologise to anyone who read my deranged posts, and say THANK YOU to Jenstar, Kattymieoww, Queen of the High teas, Nothingspecial, and Leccy, and anyone else I've forgotten, for being there, being kind and patient, and trying to talk sense into me.
(And this evening I gathered up all the alcohol left in the house and poured it down the toilet...so by now, the rats in the sewers are singing bawdy songs and picking fights with each other
)
but a lot calmer.It was my own fault, really; I should have noticed the warning signs, but I went ahead and opened the box and let the demons out.
I spent this morning with my counsellor, who was, as usual, very sensible and helpful (despite being woken at 3 am by a drunken mess wailing down the phone at her...) and this afternoon in my back garden, doing some vigorous meditation with a bokken (much the amazement of my neighbour's 10-year old daughter, who is now convinced that I'm either some sort of Amazon dragonslayer, or completely bonkers
) The demons are back where they belong, the wheels are back on my wagon and my chi is balanced...normal service has been restored
I need to apologise to anyone who read my deranged posts, and say THANK YOU to Jenstar, Kattymieoww, Queen of the High teas, Nothingspecial, and Leccy, and anyone else I've forgotten, for being there, being kind and patient, and trying to talk sense into me.
(And this evening I gathered up all the alcohol left in the house and poured it down the toilet...so by now, the rats in the sewers are singing bawdy songs and picking fights with each other
)
