Awwww Chicken I'm so very sorry you are feeling down again Can you not see one of the other doctors?

Best not to go back anywhere if you are feeling like this and doing this Chicken.
Hope you get plenty of support as always.

I could of but I only want to see the one i've seen before as he knows all about what is going on and the history behind everything thats going on

I feel so disappointed , my friends at uni must of been shocked by it all. I will miss them if i cant go back!

Well take some time out at least until your more settled and sorted.

OK....I can understand that Chicken Perhaps now you are home again you will feel a bit better..

Aww Chicken  

Really sorry to read this.

If it's not working maybe you need to change direction.

Try to not overthink things just now - I know it's easier said than done.

I really hope you pick up and that the doctor is able to help  

Try not to self harm.

Im so tired  

I knew I could come on here for support , thanks everyone

I have a appointment next week with my doctor that I had booked previously , as i see him regularly now , so ill be going next week

Plan an evening of telly, games, reading Chicken.

Something to try and take your mind off things.

thanks Baz

yeah that sounds good velvet

Chicken   but if Uni is making you feel this bad then I don't really see that you have an option - your health and well being is more important than any course.

Being at home is the best place for you atm but you must see your Doctor as soon as he's back from annual leave.

That's good advice Chicken..... Just chill out, and try not to dwell on it too much

this really is a good idea 

I find it so hard to chill out my mind just doesn't switch off. will try tho. watching friends atm

I've had a few dark periods myself Chicken.

You do get better 

As long as you help yourself which you are doing  

What VD says  




Help yourself, chat, talk things out, keep occupied. If one thing doesn't occupy you, you'll find another that will be better.

I was doing well. Im on the meds so i thought this wouldn't happen again

You are doing well. Don't feel bad for slip ups. 

Some days are better than others. Just move on and remember your were doing well, and go back to that point.

There's always light at the end of the tunnel.

Remember that.

Something else i did last night was write down words of how i felt and stuck them to my walls. Words like worthless , pathetic , stupid etc! My friends saw them aswell , im so ashamed and embarrased

So sorry to hear you are feeling down again Chicken. 
Do your parents think that being at Uni is part of your problem?
You say you have friends at Uni, though, and that you would miss them if you weren't there.
It sounds like your 'downward spirals' are difficult to shake off.
I hope you don't get too despairing. No-one said that after you sought help from your counsellor and your doctor, it would all be wine and roses straight away. It will obviously take time. It's a step-by-step process I suppose.
You know you have our support Chicken. 

Thank you brisket

Chicken, there is nothing to be embarrassed about.... and certainly nothing to be ashamed of! You would be surprised how many people have suffered from this sort of thing........

Baz

 Don't be Chicken.

 You'll come out of this stronger - mark my words.

 Just get the help.

 And don't drink if you're tempted  

I haven't drunk anything since ive been on my meds velvet

What you gonna do tonight then?  

Watch the jungle, couple of soaps and a poker win?

yeah will watch the jungle and eastenders will do some reading aswell

Good stuff    

Don't be hard on yourself  

Often (not always) but often, when I felt depressed I too have played sad music in order to continue the mood. I have drifted into pity and inadequate feelings about myself.
I can empathise with someone who would do this.  I tend to think it may be helpful and part of working through the difficulties and getting them out of ones system.
But I wouldn't want to do it repeatedly and endlessly. I feel that might do more harm than good.

But one can feel better after a good cry.
It will be nice when you no longer wish to describe yourself as worthless and pathetic.
(Not sure about 'stupid' - perhaps we're all a bit stupid.  

Absolutely no need for shame or embarrassment.

I'm pleased you will see your doctor again in a few days. Be honest with him.

Well there you go Chicken.... see, it could be worse.... you could be stuck in the jungle with Gillian Mc Keith

Sorry to hear you felt like this last night Chicken, I do hope now your home you're feeling a bit better, Don't beat yourself up, it takes time Chicken and the best thing is you sought help.  

Chicken just take time out,dont over think the situation.
Take care  

true baz

thanks guys

Chicken, IMO, you have been very brave.
You were afraid to go to see your doctor - but you did it.
You didn't think you could tell the doctor how bad you were feeling - but you did it.
You were able to confide in your parents, even though you found it difficult.
You arranged to see a counsellor.
You are taking your medication.
That doesn't sound like anything to be ashamed of, it sounds like a young man who has accepted he has problems and is doing his best to get well.

Chick!
Worthless ? pathetic ? Useless ?
You are none of these words pet! You are a unique individual of whom you should be proud of..you are you! No one is any better or greater than you..remember that!