Jack it.

You come first in this instance - not your family and friends   

It's it making year depression worse then I would do as velvet suggested 

Good luck 

I would start looking for another job straight away Sheryl ...

^^^ what Baz said, its no good staying there if its making you ill 

Hello Sheryl

Perhaps you need to look a little deeper into your feelings of depression - as the job seems like a symptom not the cause.

Maybe every job will feel like this unless you treat your depression.

What do you think?

Best wishes

Am I the only one remembering this troll?

I remember her and didn't find her to be a troll Cologne 

A new job and this is happening I remember the problems in your old job

https://www.gagajoyjoy.com/topi...ork-colleague?page=1

If you need the job, set yourself a time limit, say 8 weeks to see if you make friends/like it/fit in. Then the stress will be off as you know after 8 weeks you can walk... just having this in your head may help..

Sheryl, have you seen the doc about your mood? If not, that might be the thing to do . Hope you feel better and less anxious soon 

Hello Sheryl and welcome back

You have been given some good advice here by most... I can only add that lying to your friends and family isn't going to make you feel any better or be an easy thing to do.... so i wouldn't advise that at all.

Go see your doctor, he/she will help you sort it all out and get you back to feeling ok again.

Good luck and keep us updated

Sorry Sheryl, but a couple of hours?? Give it a chance, a jobs a job it helps pay the bills. I had a job that made me feel the same way but I stayed for 8 years because it paid the bills. As for the depression, see the Dr.

It's strange Cologne, but I hardly ever look at profiles and I did with this user before I saw your post. Now I'm not saying that you are right or wrong but most of the posts appear to be about job problems or relationships issues.

My advice Sheryl if you need it is to seek professional advice, your problems appear to be long lasting and posting here has clearly not helped as you are having a recurrence of your past issues.

I agree with Saint above.

Sounds harsh but I feel the same Cinds, calling in sick on the second day after only giving it a couple of hours  Feelings of not fitting in and being the 'odd one out' when you don't know anyone and haven't given it a chance  Work is work not a social event.  Stop contemplating your environment and colleagues, get your head down and get on with it.

If you are properly depressed rather than 'feeling down' cos your relationship is on the rocks, go to the doc's 

Give it another go Sheryl. I'd give it at least a week before you make a decision. Give yourself plenty of time in the morning to get ready. Feel comfortable in your dress/appearance. Try (it may be hard but try) to put a smile on your face when speaking to people or catching their eye.

As for feeling vulnerable and self conscious in an open plan office just remember - not  all eyes are constantly on you - other people have work to do and although you are the most important person in your life you're not a big deal to them (harsh words but true).

You wont have created a great impression by calling in sick on your second day but you can turn it around with a small effort. Hold your head up, look people in the eye, try to smile and ask for help if you need it. Treat it as an acting job - be a different person for a day and try not to be too introspective.

If you pretend you are confident - eventually you just might believe it.

And remember - everyone has insecurities - some are better at hiding it.

Good luck and do come back and let us know how you get on.

Think of it this way ... what do you really have to fear from your new job?

Is it a fear that is real or imagined?

If you leave your job then claiming all the benefits you need might be difficult. And if you say its a depression issue then they will ask for a doctors assessment which will have to be disclosed to your next employer.

If you really need help - you owe it to yourself to get it.

Thanks for your advice everyone. I know that it is best I go back to work tomorrow, but something inside me is telling me not to. I just cannot work out what it is. I have worked through depression and a general feeling of being an outcast for years, but just do not feel I am able to with this job, which suggests that it is the working environment, and not my depression that is stopping me from going back :-(

Won;t the next job be the same? Or risk being the same?

You need deeper issues sorted.

Only you can tackle that.

Good luck

Sheryl confide in a friend you can trust or a family member and, with them, seek out the help you need.

You're young so there's a long, happy life waiting for you when you get your  demons sorted. Your doctor will be willing to help.