I may have to come back & edit this in the morning.. 

 

I am unabashedly drunk as a skunk!!!

 

 

 

Shame my hubby won;t use the old alcohol to dull the pain....      he says he doesn't understand why people do that!  

 

Cos it makes you numb husband...   it makes you numb 

Sad day Ditts  

 

Looks like a right character too  

Ditts our hairy babies are as special as our human babies. 

BTW, I love his picture. He looks like a right character 

What a gorgeous boy  

 

I totally understand your heartbreak. Give yourself time to grieve for him. 

“You think dogs will not be in heaven? I tell you, they will be there long before any of us”

Ditty 

 

So sad.

Had a lovely dream the other night - reunited with my beloved setter who passed in 2005.

 

You never forget them.

I can seejust  by looking at him how you can't fail to love him .

 

 

          Member of The Family
What would I do without you, My precious, furry friend?…

Part Mischief, but all blessing, And faithful to the end!
You look at me with eyes of love; You never hold a grudge…

You think I’m far to wonderful To criticize of Judge.
It seems your greatest joy in life If being close to me…

I think God knew how comforting Your warm, soft fur would be.
I know you think you’re human, But I’m glad it isn’t true…

The world would be a nicer place If Folks were more like you!
A few short years are all we have; One day we’ll have to part…

But you, my pet, will always have A place within my heart

Keep the puppy Frodo. 3 dogs is no more hassle than 2 

My beautiful boy died in 2000. I got him for my 5th birthday and he was my best friend and shadow all his life. He was a Heinz 57. A stray my mum and dad got off a man in the pub one night. Best dog ever. 

 

 

It was meant to be  

I said I wouldn't cry....I was wrong 

She was running amok on a football field on a hillside. I just knew she was there. So I ran across a road with current dog in tow till I reached a stream - had to stop cause Dolly couldn't have jumped it. I shouted Chanel - and down she came full tilt cleared the stream and lay down at my feet for me to put her collar on. That dog was special     

I still have dreams about my childhood boy who we lost in 1991, and in my dreams he always has the puppy we had that got knocked over and killed 16 August 1978, at around 5pm. 

 

Funny how you remember things.

ditty xxxx and the rest of the ditty crew too xxx

Oh Ditty that's so sad and I'm gutted for you You should be really proud of yourselves though because that doggy had a wonderful life, a fab home and was loved so very much. You did everything in your power to help him and reduce his suffering, you're a fantastic dog owner he'll be dog heaven now feeling no pain and watching over you, I'm sure he'd want you to give another little dog the chance of a great life like he had Bramble sends lots of kisses and we'll be thinking if you

So sorry Ditty 

Ditts 

Mornings...    are a total bitch!

 

 

I think we have progress though..   yesterday morning MrD & I woke up sobbing at 5am...     this morning I didn't wake up til 7am (thanks to a sleeping tablet from my Mum)..    and didn't start sobbing til I got halfway down the stairs (& found myself looking for him).

 

Today is Friday..   I don't work Fridays, so in my head I am running the mornings schedule - 'take boy to school, come home, walk dog..    no, no walk dog"

 

hurts. so. much. 

 

 

I don't even look like me at the moment..    my eyes are so swollen & sore 

 

 

totally & utterly broken 

 hows the hangover? 

bizarre..   I don't seem to have one..   

 

I necked a bottle of wine virtually straight down the night before last..   did the same last night (and had a sleeping tablet)..    and I really don't feel hungover.

 

mind you..   I don't feel normal..    I can't eat (I have eaten..  forced a bit of chicken & Pitta down last night)..     

 

Ditty........XXXX

 Ditty, I know how much you loved AJ and how much you are hurting right now, but you gave him a fantastic life and he was surrounded by love.

When the time came, you acted with kindness and love, and put an end to his suffering. He was a lucky little dog to have owners who put him first and ended his pain, even though it broke your heart to do it.

Our animals are part of our family, so give yourself time to grieve for him. It takes time, but the pain will ease somewhat and the happy memories will come forward.

I was definitely drunk last night..   I made him a lot older than his was in my OP... 

 

have amended that now..   think its right..    basically he would have be 9 next month 

& yeah..  thank you everyone..    I know that some of you already knew, as I had posted it on FB..   but I also knew I had to tell you all in here.

 

 

We're determinedly puppy searching at the moment..   to get one asap..    its not just for our sakes..    this has devasted my parents too (AJ went to them on the days I worked)..  and seeing us so upset is also upsetting them.   We have to do what we can to fast track the grieving, cos of Mum.    Can't allow her to sink into depression..   she has to be on fighting form. 

 

 

I knew on New Years Eve that this year was gonna be a horrible one..     didn't quite expect it to be this horrible though 

or as my Dad puts it (on his not so good days).. 

 

"ah well lass..  in 100 years all of this will be over" 

 

Ditty

aww..  look at you..  you've got your own stuff going on...   (I just read about your SIL)..   and you still care about me & my dog grieving  

 

Keeping everything crossed for her & the baby Jen xxxx   Modern medicine really is a wonderful thing..     I will be hoping for a very happy result  xxx   

Thanx Ditty, SiL hinted at good news! So im just waiting for my Brother to call me *Bites nails off waiting*

 

 

Our furbabies are just as much an important member of the family as human members.  I'm devastated for you as I know you loved him and did everything you could for your bundle of fluff.  Hard as it may have been, you did the right thing for AJ 

Glad to hear the mum is eating now, and that the pup is thriving, Frodo.

I've no experience of breeding dogs or having tiny puppies, but I'm sure someone on the forum will have some hints and tips.

Oh, Ditty. I'm so sorry.

 

I'm so sorry. I've been through that, and it IS the hardest decision. However, like you, there was no doubt it was the right time when it happened.

 

Some people have to fill the void right away with a new puppy, and there's not a thing wrong with that. Mr. Lori (a non-dog-or-cat-person) asked me to wait 6 months...and then pretty much nixed the dog idea altogether (although he has agreed to the 2 cats I have now ).

 

AJ will be in your heart forever. 

Awwwwww......what a little doll! *melts into a puddle*

I totally disagree with this....  

 

the void is filled..    and in doing so it allows you to (after a period of time & grieving) look back on the dog you lost with happy fond memories.

 

I know this..    unfortunately this isn't my first rodeo... 

 

AJ was named after a previous Cairn of ours..  Angus..    I still love him..   but I don't grieve for him..    and there isn't an Angus shaped hole in our world.   He is alive in our memories..   and thinking & talking about him doesn't hurt.

 

We will get to this place, one day, with AJ.    Not yet, its waay too soon.   But it will happen.

 

The physical void in our home we can fill.    

 

 

I agree Ditty...getting another dog, in my experience has been the only way to deal with the "void"..I have had dogs all my life and have been absolutely heartbroken many times, every time I think NEVER again I cannot keep dealing with this pain and heartbreak...The Westie in my avatar I got only 3wks after losing my Collie/Whippet cross who had been one of the most beautiful loyal dogs I have ever had the pleasure of knowing. That was 7 years ago, a year later I adopted the cairn/yorkie cross also in my avater...I still cry about my beloved Pip even today...

 

You can never replace a dog who you love,but you can get another dog to love and care for..a reason to get up in the morning... 

yep..   that words it perfectly... 

 

 

we pick up our new family member tomorrow -  which is really quick I know, but we had to do something..     plus we have a small window of opportunity in terms of puppies...   the girl is back from uni on Sunday for 4 months...  meaning someone will be in the house all day when we are at work (I only work part time)...   and besides..    nothing is going to stop our hearts breaking over AJ..   but with a rampant 4 month old Springer Labrador cross tearing around, we won't have as much time to dwell on it.

 

I will start a new thread tomorrow..    and introduce you all to Loki 

We haven't even tried to "replace" AJ..    

 

I have had Cairn Terriers all my life..   but at the moment it feels like I have had the bestest Cairn that ever was...     boots way too big to expect another Cairn to fill...   

 

So..   gone for something completely different..     and a cross breed (this bit was important to me..   I am sick to death of KC/pedigree in breeding and all that)