She is/was a tiny Bengal, the "runt" f the litter. I only had her 4 months from from 10 months old and spent allthat time training her to be used to my dogs and them with her. she would come racing when i called and we talked herfunny talk of ranges of "WOW" rather than miow. Only slowly let her go out and I live right in the middle of no where but yesterday when i got up she was missing. i just knew. walked up and down the lane calling and calling, looking in hedges and ditches then when i went the other way saw her fur. just stood staring and had terrible chest pains. kept willing her to move but i knew she was dead. she was just out side my fence. i think she was getting on so well my other cat, Santa, she was following him every where and he goes in the dyke.
night before fprayedhad  trained her not to go beyond it as have lots of land. just cannot stop thinking if only this, if only that.. i should not have let her out, I always got her back in no matter how late andSanata but i left the window open. I always said take care, be careful.. its my fault I know.
Santa followed me all the rest ofthe day and when i was trying to dig a hole he climbed in it.
I wrapped her in a nice blanket and put her favourite toy with her, a 6ft snake with a bell onthe end.. sorry, know this si not BB but I need to write about it.i have put a curse on who ever did it that their car will combust. This is a little pot holed lane yet they drive like maniacs. Why? i don't understand..it ruins cars because ofthe ruts and pot holes andwhy did they not at least stop, knock on my door,say sorry?