Originally Posted by Dirtyprettygirlthing:
Aw EC.. I'm so sorry
I said all last year that the only thing I could think of that would have been worse than the slow death of the cancer that killed my Mum would have been Alzheimer's . The brain tumour she had gave me a horrible insight into how truly awful it is to lose bits of the person you love.. right in front of your eyes. And to watch it rob them of their dignity.
I am so so sorry.
I have also learned (enlightened now ain't I? wish to hell I wasn't) that however long you have had to "come to terms with their death".. however much warning you had, however much you prayed for the mercy of death to happen.. it makes no difference when it actually does happen. Unbelievably it still feels like a shock.. and nothing actually does prepare you for it.
You're much loved on here... the people here will help you...
Its been 5 months for me now.. and its just starting to turn the corner and get better.... (sorry to say that up until christmas it just seemed to hurt more & more each day... I just clung onto the fact that everyone had said it takes 6 months.. 6 months til it starts to get bearable).
And then there is your Mum... I've had that one too.. a heartbroken grieving parent... best advice anyone has given my Dad was the six month rule.. DO NOT MAKE ANY DECISIONS... especially about where you are going to live.. for 6 months. But on a day to day basis.. its so hard.
Sorry... I wittered on....
I just wanted you to know - somehow we start to get through this.. either that or holding back the tears starts to become a sub conscious thing..
much love xx
That is a very heartfelt post and I can empathise with much of it.
I appreciate the friends on the forum and know what a good group they all are and always willing to give an ear to a problem.
I am lucky to work for an organisation that has a councillor - something I have taken advantage of. It's good to chat to a professional, especially someone who has had first hand experience of my situation. I have been given a lot of advice.
Thanks for your post and words DPGT