depression is a sneaky little b*stard,sometimes it creeps up and bites ya arse when you dont expect it
it could be summat daft to trigger it, maybe you cant find your remote control or youve ran out of milk but your brain tells you its a major fail and then youre off, over thinking everything, analyzing, wondering if you did something different would YOU be different
you most likely wouldnt be different, i think depression is sometimes hereditary and you dont even know youve inherited it until something happens and starts it off
worrying isnt a weakness, it shows youve got a bit of heart and caring in ya, the way forward is to channel all them negative thoughts into something that keeps your brain occupied, dont give the brain time to worry, train your brain to think in a different way, go to the library and get a book on *cognitive behavioral therapy* and see if that could help
just cos depression isnt a physical condition ie a cast on a broken leg, people can find it hard to understand it cos they cant see it
but the reality is that it exsists
so have a think about positive things, write things down that you want to do, then tick off the ones that you think you COULD do and have a go
we're a planet with 7 billion people on it and youre occupying a little piece of it,its all yours, so make it worthwhile for yourself
just try and think different
and all the best mate