It will do when its dry Sweet

 

love that smiley Sweet

I thought it was fun moonie

 

hi - just finished schoolwork

Hi Ros I'm here ,there , and everywhere ....so catch you in the adverts  

Hi Ros
Just in time

Hi bazzy and moons in BB fred

I'll see you when you get back here Ros

What are you up to tomorrow Moonie? 

Tomorrow at 9-10am foot clinic then shopping and relaxing(as per) for the rest of the day Bazzy
How about you?

Evening Darnies

 

Grief is such a ridiculous thing. 

 

I've done pretty well on the crying front.....especially considering I'm usually a bit of a crier and it doesn't normally take much!  But I've held it together brilliantly well. Mostly by doing anything and everything to avoid any thoughts that would lead to tears. Head in the sand and all that.

 

What I have suffered with though, is a complete and utter lack of motivation to do anything!  Everything has been an huge effort. Work has suffered massively! I've just about managed to drag myself through the school days, and done the minimum required to keep things going. (That's probably still quite a lot in my job.... but it doesn't feel anywhere near enough and it makes you feel crap when you know you're doing a crap job!)

 

Anyway, today I think (I hope) I've turned a corner. For the first evening in god knows how long I've willingly sat down and down a full evenings work and actually felt good about doing so. And I'm feeling enthusiastic about my to-do list again  

 

So, I think to myself.......ooooh I'll pop in and celebrate with you lot... and for some reason I check the date and then for some really STUPID reason I start thinking that it hasn't even been quite two months since my mum went.....and I've now spent the last 15 minutes crying more than I think I've cried since it happened. 

 

It was a good day!!! How does a good day make you bleeding cry? 

 

I'm ok now though, honest And please feel free to ignore all of the above and just say hello as normal I know it's all a bit serious for a BB launch night   

 

I've just been a bit of rubbish Darnie of late.....and wanted you to know I may be getting back to normal.... soonish. Fingers crossed  

*goes to investigate whether choosing No.5 was a mistake*

Awwwww Ducky Humungous hug It is always up and down .....but you are NEVER a rubbish Darnie  

Well mine was a right dork! 

Oh and (D)Ucky  .....I've decided tonight was the night for the big guns  

aww lots of hugs ducky - all part of the grieving process - you have done briliantly

 

yes i chose number 5 as well

Aw ducky big hugs & love to you. Grief is so unpredictable, and very tiring, I hope poppy has been on hand to comfort you.
I hope you feel a release for having a right good cry

 

 

 

That made me run to check my phone!  

 

I noticed I'm glad I have some support  

 

 

Yeah, maybe. I kinda liked pretending nothing had changed though.  

 

Pops has definitely helped.  

Well you did better than mine ....she apparently * went with* some footballer ....! 

Wise words Sweet  

Hi Ducky

Have another

 

Went with...... that's a polite way to put it Are they your words or her's? Cos I know you can do better than that.... I have the proof now   

 

I'll take as many as you can manage Moons  

I think that's the denial part ducky the day after my dad died I just got up and did my paper round and then went back to school as normal. Only my very close friends knew and to everyone else I just pretended life was normal, I didn't cry for months.
I slept all the spare time I could too

I'm really glad you have poppy there, I bet she senses your sadness

.....mine ....I keep my * bloopers * for VERY special occasions  

going to go

 

night bazzyy moons ducky

Goodnight Ros ....sleep well and sweet dreams  

 

Hmmmmm...... 

There you go

 

Bloody hell Summer That must have been tough  

 

 

 

Night Ros  

Nite nite Ros. Sleep well and have sweet dreams