Aww Pirate As someone who suffers from chronic anxiety I don't think age has anything to do with it Have you got any help for it?

^^^^ this, I suffer from panic attacks and have done since I was in my 20's, you may be stressing over an accumulation of things Pirate 

^^^^^ this 

It's easy to say it's only a number but it's down the person ultimately 

Hang in there Pirate...you know where we all are  

Nice song....have always liked it 

and no

im not going to docs

ive gotta calm down

if they took my blood pressure i would ping them in the eye

i bid you goodnight

Pirate...maybe your medication isn't doing what it should anymore. I know you say you don't want the docs but seriously they can help you way more than any of us can, although we're always here as a sounding board for you 

You need to get yourself settled before you attempt to deal with other things 

Pirate, please go to the doctors. It could be your blood pressure which is making you dizzy.

Pirate .....maybe you should go back to the doc ?,

Been there, done that!

I had a history of panic attacks made worse by the works quack picking me up on high BP. Not helped by white coat syndrome. One reaches a certain age where a responsibility for several generations kicks in. I have four generations to worry about!

I implore you to see your GP and get a full MOT; BP and Blood analysis.  A good GP will hopefully tell you that there is nothing wrong, and even if there is a minor issue they'll sort it out. I was amazed when I realised how many of my friends both here and in The Fatherland were on BP medication! 

We cycle everyday and it is so uplifting. Fresh air and exercise is where it's at. (And beer)

I hope everything goes well for you and don't forget 50 is only a decimal number. 

im leaving for a while

............ And don't forget you have lots of pals on here. There is always someone to talk to.

 Come back soon!

^^^^What Joe said.

Hope you are feeling a bit better  today Pirate  

sometime i have little devils nipping at my heels

i KNOW ive being going a bit bonkers

and ive calmed down

and

breathe

been talking to my cuz who is older than me

telling me to calm down

so i am

calm-ish

now

i got a million thoughts running through my head all at the same time

and im not clever enough to sort them

Awww...bless  I Totally understand where you are coming from Pirate ...but glad you are feeling a bit better . 

I'm glad you are feeling calmer, Pirate.

I think we all get those little devils nipping at our heels, at one time or another.

my mate has died

he never told me he was ill

so i just text him saying how much i love him

i know his parents will read it

its all sad

he was a good friend

for my mate andy

i love you mate

Sort yourself out, Pirate - you owe it to Lisa, your family and friends and anyone else who's important to you (and vice versa).  You're not in a good place and that's not right; shrugging it off doesn't work unless it's a temporary blip - the longer term requires you to be well.

Come on fella, you can get this right even if it takes the help of someone else to make sense of it and put things in perspective for you  

I'm sorry for your recent loss of a good mate too; that's got to be double blow for you.

Pirate you've been dealing with a lot of shit recently so it's no wonder you're feeling it now.  Get down the doc's though, get your meds checked and get your head straight because people need you and you need to be happy.  You deserve to be happy and ignoring the fact that you need to see the doc is not doing any one any good, least of all you.

Sorry for the loss of your mate xx

P.S:  You is well old, innit!

*runs* (but not very fast coz I am fat)

*cough* Actually Ells, Pirate is young! OK?! (Good to see you btw )

Pirate, listen to all of them above ... you know it makes sense

Hope you go get some help soon Pirate, it's hard to take that first step but like Cosi said you owe it to yourself and everyone who loves you 

im alright-just a bit shocked about my mate-i was a bit p!ssed aswell..so im gonna pick myself up & stop being a div-cos it dont help anybody, especially me

but had a good old chat today with a mate, verbal kick up the ar$e so to speak

so shoulders are pulled back, socks are pulled up etc...

ta for your comments

youre all very bloody lovely

lisa's not happy-i put a pic up on FB of her going shopping

she HATES publicity

see...

i said i was gonna be alright

and just as i posted that lisa phoned, her son has been mugged outside asda, lads said give us your bag, your phone or your bike,

he gave them the bike, as it wasnt his

they didnt hurt him as far as we know,

lisa just going to fetch him-cops on the way,

i best start hiding things in my room!

You little devil! 

3 black kids

one had his hand up his jumper-like he was gonna pull a knife

stepson did sensible thing-handed over

if it was me i'd have started

and got stabbed

half the pub has gone gunning for the little bastards

lets hope cops get to them first

bloody hell Pirate, do you ever have a quiet night in your house   hope the lads ok and he did the best thing to hand it over...hope they catch the little sods 

Jeez! Pirate. Good job he's still live to tell the tale.  And condolences on your friend's death 

Hope things start looking up for you soon   You surely have been through a lot 

ive been out looking

i'll leave it to the cops

cos i get into trouble if i start

so i got headphones on

aving a bit of Blondie

for a change