Hey you lovely lot! I haven't been posting recently because this baby of mine has stolen my gaga time but I have been reading quite often Just thought I'd post here because, well actually because I need somewhere to vent and if I do it my partner he'll try to help and probably make things worse.
So, last weekend my mum had a massive stroke No movement on one side of her body, very little speech, some brain damage, a busted head and a broken foot. She's just gone from this bubbly, loving, caring, easy going Mum to someone who can just about nod, say yes and no and just 'mmm's at us most of the day. She's in hospital now and will be for weeks.
You would think that would be all we'd have to focus on but no, of course the family feuds are already starting and I'm playing peace keeper and piggy in the middle and hating people because they are putting me in that position. If I don't play it though then they will kill each other, my Mum will probably see some of the awkwardness and will worry and I don't want that. So I'm stressed out. I could quite happily run away and hide.
I also had intended to book my holiday next week. It's not til October so my partner had said maybe we shouldn't go but I said no, we're going. Because I think by that time, I might really need a holiday! Am I being selfish going away and leaving my sisters to care for her by themselves?
I feel like a child at the minute. I am the youngest of the family but seem to be the one worrying about how to keep it all together and really just want someone to take over and leave me to just go see Mum and not have to worry about anything else. I know THAT is selfish but at the minute I don't care.