well done 

 

looking forward to the pictures 

Can't wait to meet Loki!

 

thank you 

 

I gotta be honest..   its all very bittersweet and extremely emotional..   but we know its what has to be done.    So many reasons why..    including I don't want to spend the next few months distraught over AJ,..   wasting what little time I have left with Mum if you know what I mean...     I've developed some amazing "putting big girl pants on & dealing with it" skills over the past year..   if manning up & getting a puppy straight away is what it takes for me to be able to continue to do this..   then so be it.

 

I know we'll love Loki..      and I know he will help me heal enough from losing AJ to be able to keep it together enough to cope with what the future holds in terms of my Mum 

Sounds like a great plan to me!

Chanel

 

you might need to keep telling me that...     every now & then I find myself having doubts..   

 

 

*has word with self*

 

nope..   gotta do this..    it will be fine..     got to be done... 

 

 

(I think I might actually have crossed that fine line and might possibly actually be losing it...   flicking through the whole range of emotions at alarming speeds) 

ooooooh Velvet!!!

 

she's beautiful!!

 

Red Setter was one of the ones on my "breeds of dogs that aren't terriers that I like list"

 

They're all beautiful Ditty  

 

Looking forward to Loki  

thank you 

I still want a beagle. 

 

you will be fine 

 

we lost our first boy Ben in a RTA when our Lad was coming up to a year old so we got another straight away as we wanted them to grow up together 

 

the only thing I will say is .....  having a puppy around again came as a shock   you forget what it is like as they age ... dont suppose it helped that I had a small toddler in tow as well 

 

I haven't forgotten MrsH...      it came as a huge shock when we got AJ...    it was exactly like having a naughty hyperactive toddler in the house...  

 

I am bracing myself for much of the same..  

 

We had a beagle once. He was a bugga  Got into all sorts mischief 

ooooooh..   see I considered a beagle as well..  

 

my friend has 2 beagles..      they are amazing dogs 

Good one Ditty..

 

Looking forward to the pic's..

I want a Dalmation..

All those spots before they eyes Lal? 

ahhh the days of puppy play pens to keep them safe outside and learning if it's on the floor, it's in their mouths, attention seeking balls of fluff   I was exhausted keeping an eye on Milo till he was 6 months old 

Yaay Milooooooo 

Aww! Sorry for your loss Ditty! Dogs are always very special to the families that they are so much a part of!

ahhh velvet, she's beautiful! 

 

Ditty, canny wait to " meet" Loki! Really glad you're doing this, it's exactly the right thing x

so sorry to hear this - so sad glad you are getting another puppy

Ditty  

I did it for my dog and cat, but needed a drink to go to the vet both times. Respect.

I hope so..   no, in my head, I know so. 

 

I've decided that despite the doubts, the odd panic & wanting to back out, I'm doing this..     

 

keep telling myself.  "it will be fine..   I'll look back & know it was the right thing to do at the time"

 

deep breathes..  head down..    Up to Lincs I go tomorrow to go get Loki 

thank you xxx    

 

hardest thing I have ever had to do in my whole life..    I am proud that I was able to be strong enough to swallow my grief and be his mummy and not show my distress.... 

 

I actually didn't know I had it in me..  

 

Ah that's lovely I can't wait to hear about Loki, I hope you enjoy going to pick up the new pup tomorrow

Aww looking forward to meeting Loki (I like the name btw)

woke up at 5am sobbing heart out again..   

 

mornings really are the worst..   

 

 

hopefully tomorrow morning I will be too busy dealing with mental puppy to feel like this

Love you AJ...    so sooo much 

 

The greater the love, the greater the heartache when we lose someone, and that includes our pets, Ditty. 

AJ was a lucky dog to have you and your family and Loki will be, too.

I look forward to hearing lots of tales of his exploits.

Awe Ditty, I'm so so sorry to hear this, no doubt that he was one of the most loved dogs on the world and had a great life with you and your family.

Oops posted too soon, I was going to say and if he hadn't been then you wouldn't be feeling this sad. Well done you 'though for putting on your 'big girl pants' for him at the end. Enjoy Loki and big love to you all xxx

  

 

impossible to have loved him anymore... 

 

 

anyways..  we're off to get Loki now..      I know it won't stop the hurt or the tears..   but he'll give us something good to focus on too 

 

xxx

Looking forward to seeing the pics of Loki