Hi everyone, Ive been having a little thinky and I would like to clarify my earlier comment (which has managed to upset quite a few people it would seem!!) I have always been a big Big Brother fan, and have watched it since the first series, obviously appearing on the show last year changed my perspective somewhat - and i found out the hard way that things are not  always what they seem when it comes to what actually goes on and what the viewers are allowed to see.

Having said that, I have remained a fan of the programme and have had pretty mixed feelings about it coming to an end. I dont know when the last supper show is being aired tonight but the feelings i had while filmming that have changed slightly because of events that have happened SINCE filming, although I really didn't mean to out and out slate the programme in my previous comment.

Nadia's situation has really struck a chord with me and its brought back a lot of feelings about my experience last year.  I can only thank god, and my friends and family, that I WAS strong enough to cope with my "Villian" status, because if i hadn't have had the strenght and support, I could have quite easilly ended up in a similar situation to the one Nadia is now in. I dont think viewers can really imagine how awful it is to go through - and this idea that housemates are public property and its ok to judge, condemn and hate on a MAJOR, NNATIONAL level because of trivial events that happen in a very pressurised tv studio, is absolutely completely CRAZY. Somehow, THANKFULLY i managed to let most of the criticism completely pass me by, ive got on with my life as normal, made some worthwhile changes, done some growing up and been thankful for the experience as its made me a stronger person -  but i cant stop my heart going out to Nadia who is clearly a lot more fragile and vulnerable to public opinion......  Anyway, what i was really getting at is while individuals are being driven to attempted suicide because of the show (and indivuals who are DRIVEABLE to attempted suicide are being ALLOWED onto the show for the purpose of "entertainment") AND the public continue to fail to realise how much of an impact their MASS opinion/booing/blogging/ds posting etc. can have on a person, I have started question if BB coming to an end is really such a bad thing.

It IS the end of an era, and our summers will never be the same, of course theres a part of me that feels nostalgic, but with Nadia in hospital, and countless other people left very damaged as a result of the show, I can't get all weepy about it coming to an end, and did not feel it was appropriate to appear on BBLB/BBBM today, singing the shows praises and celebrating Davina's sucessful career while someone's life has been ruined because of it, and other people have found life extremely difficult following their appearance on the programme.

I WAS a bit harsh earlier, and a bit flippant with how I put my point accross, but while the fireworks go off tonight, and you're feeling sad that the shows over, I hope we can all also spare a moment for the people who have suffered and particularly Nadia who is suffering right now, at the hands of our favourite "lighthearted entertainmment" show xx