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Originally posted by Queen of the High Teas:

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Originally posted by Sarum:
Sorry, I can't do this.

I'll be back later.

hey!

youre not under the microscope-we've all been there in our own different ways-and we all cope differently
as long as youre here, and safe and sound, thats all that matters

dont get fed up

blimey!
who'd have thought i could be sensible

come back when youre ready

Blimey, that is indeed very sensible and beautifully put too China.

ta!

and mary bee-i put you as one of my faves on russ's thread

in a different time place and fictional world-me and you would be skipping towards an enid blyton lifestyle-just how we thought it shoulda been

I knoww, I was chuffed to bits with that

And awh, I wishhh the tree was real! Mrs. Blyton has a lot to answer for!

innit nice to 'lose' yourself in an enid blyton book
glad you were chuffed darlin

Ahh yes it definitely is! In fact, I am going to read one this evening. Or maybe a Just William, but I'm not too sure

i'll recommened a read-jody and jake mysteries-a bit 'american' but it sorta pulls you in

It might be a long shot, but did you read the Naughtiest Girl at School and all the Malory Towers Blyton books too? After the Faraway Tree they were my favourites.

I'm reading my 100 year old Norse Mythology book atm, which is a beasssst of a book

enid wrote 700 books-ive read at least 500 of them or maybe more

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[QUOTE]Originally posted by Shizzlex:
Oh my god Mary i loved Malory Towers and all enid blyton books

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Oh my god Mary i loved Malory Towers and all enid blyton books

I cried SO much when she left the school! I always wanted to go to boarding school as well after reading them.

me too i remember taking my time to read the last book i never wanted it to end

i was never really in to the famous 5 but loved the other detective ones

anyhow got to go bed nice speaking to you lot tonight i've had fun

night darlo, me old china abd darnell and jen

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Oh my god Mary i loved Malory Towers and all enid blyton books

I cried SO much when she left the school! I always wanted to go to boarding school as well after reading them.

me too i remember taking my time to read the last book i never wanted it to end

i was never really in to the famous 5 but loved the other detective ones

anyhow got to go bed nice speaking to you lot tonight i've had fun

night darlo, me old china abd darnell and jen

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Oh my god Mary i loved Malory Towers and all enid blyton books

I cried SO much when she left the school! I always wanted to go to boarding school as well after reading them.

me too i remember taking my time to read the last book i never wanted it to end

i was never really in to the famous 5 but loved the other detective ones

anyhow got to go bed nice speaking to you lot tonight i've had fun

night darlo, me old china abd darnell and jen

Ah yes same! I remember when I finished it I felt like a big part of my life had ended

Yeah, I wasn't a massive Famous Five fan either but I loved the one with Fatty and the Summer House where they planned things.

Night night btw

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Sarum! you okay honey...

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And thank you to everyone else too, I'm sorry I ran off like that but I needed to sort nyself out .

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Sarum Really glad you are ok

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When I was 15 I went to a party in a dress. it was really really stupid and I should have known better after all the trouble I'd had for being too girly but it was something I really wanteds to do.
I went with my girlfriend(it was her dress, and it was really pretty) and some other friends, and we were having a great time; lots of drink and good music (for the time anyway, we liked it ) After a little while this boy started chatting me up; I got a little nervous and tried to avoid him for a bit but he was determined. he kept trying to talk to me, and be close to me, I kept trying to make excuses and eventually I started to walk away.
He came after me and put his hand up my dress...he wasn't very happy with what he found there so he dragged me outside and started kicking and hitting me. My friends tried to get him off, but his friend kept them aweay and joined in. I remeber the song that was playing before I passed out, and it still makes me scared every time I hear it.
I was in hospital for a week; I didn't wake up for three days, and then I learned that Mary had called my gran who had come down and helped clean off my make up and get me dressed more normally befoer my parents came.
The police came and talked to me, and told me that if i tried to take them to court everyone would think that I was queer and I'd done it just to trick the boys, so it was best if I just kept quiet and let it be just a party fight and that was that. They were expelled from the school anyway, and I failed all my exams and had to go to a psychiatrist for months.

I've drunk all my vodka now, and I'm getting tired.

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When I was 15 I went to a party in a dress. it was really really stupid and I should have known better after all the trouble I'd had for being too girly but it was something I really wanteds to do.
I went with my girlfriend(it was her dress, and it was really pretty) and some other friends, and we were having a great time; lots of drink and good music (for the time anyway, we liked it ) After a little while this boy started chatting me up; I got a little nervous and tried to avoid him for a bit but he was determined. he kept trying to talk to me, and be close to me, I kept trying to make excuses and eventually I started to walk away.
He came after me and put his hand up my dress...he wasn't very happy with what he found there so he dragged me outside and started kicking and hitting me. My friends tried to get him off, but his friend kept them aweay and joined in. I remeber the song that was playing before I passed out, and it still makes me scared every time I hear it.
I was in hospital for a week; I didn't wake up for three days, and then I learned that Mary had called my gran who had come down and helped clean off my make up and get me dressed more normally befoer my parents came.
The police came and talked to me, and told me that if i tried to take them to court everyone would think that I was queer and I'd done it just to trick the boys, so it was best if I just kept quiet and let it be just a party fight and that was that. They were expelled from the school anyway, and I failed all my exams and had to go to a psychiatrist for months.

I've drunk all my vodka now, and I'm getting tired.

Sarum my lovely, it was all in a different time and a different place. It sounds as though you've had a tough time in your past and that's still hurting you now. I'm not going to tell you to put it all behind you, I doubt that's possible. But I can tell you that from what you've said you have always had people around you that care deeply for you. That's the thing to focus on, not some ignorant bigots who don't deserve to be memorialised for the damage that they've done. I don't think I've ever spoken with you before but you sound like a decent person and I hope you can be happy. Put the vodka away and try and get yourself some decent sleep. I don't think I've ever wanted to give someone a hug as much as I want to give you one now.

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Sarum,that wasn't your fault,your were taken advantage of.Have you got some help dealing with it.
Gawd these emoticons are trite....seriously do get some counselling.No matter when it happened.it will help.

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Originally posted by Sarum:
When I was 15 I went to a party in a dress. it was really really stupid and I should have known better after all the trouble I'd had for being too girly but it was something I really wanteds to do.
I went with my girlfriend(it was her dress, and it was really pretty) and some other friends, and we were having a great time; lots of drink and good music (for the time anyway, we liked it ) After a little while this boy started chatting me up; I got a little nervous and tried to avoid him for a bit but he was determined. he kept trying to talk to me, and be close to me, I kept trying to make excuses and eventually I started to walk away.
He came after me and put his hand up my dress...he wasn't very happy with what he found there so he dragged me outside and started kicking and hitting me. My friends tried to get him off, but his friend kept them aweay and joined in. I remeber the song that was playing before I passed out, and it still makes me scared every time I hear it.
I was in hospital for a week; I didn't wake up for three days, and then I learned that Mary had called my gran who had come down and helped clean off my make up and get me dressed more normally befoer my parents came.
The police came and talked to me, and told me that if i tried to take them to court everyone would think that I was queer and I'd done it just to trick the boys, so it was best if I just kept quiet and let it be just a party fight and that was that. They were expelled from the school anyway, and I failed all my exams and had to go to a psychiatrist for months.

I've drunk all my vodka now, and I'm getting tired.

Sarum my lovely, it was all in a different time and a different place. It sounds as though you've had a tough time in your past and that's still hurting you now. I'm not going to tell you to put it all behind you, I doubt that's possible. But I can tell you that from what you've said you have always had people around you that care deeply for you. That's the thing to focus on, not some ignorant bigots who don't deserve to be memorialised for the damage that they've done. I don't think I've ever spoken with you before but you sound like a decent person and I hope you can be happy. Put the vodka away and try and get yourself some decent sleep. I don't think I've ever wanted to give someone a hug as much as I want to give you one now.

I've put all the vodka away now, it's in me but I think I might have to wait a bit before I dare to sleep.

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(((Sarum)))

I was bullied for years for being the weird kid, because boys aren't supposed to wear eyeliner, nail varnish and have long hair at school.
(apparently they're not supposed to prefer reading Sylvia Plath and Stephen King to playing rugby and football, either, but I've never figured that one out)

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Sarum,that wasn't your fault,your were taken advantage of.Have you got some help dealing with it.
Gawd these emoticons are trite....seriously do get some counselling.No matter when it happened.it will help.

I have had lots of counselling, and it did help, it just sneaks up on me sometimes.
I'll be fine tomorrow.
But I wish my gran were still here.

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Thanx for the kind words Leccy and Katty, they are appreciated
But in all honesty, I'm fine.

School was a living hell for me, but that's just the way it was, and it's all just served to make me stronger today.

Sorry for the cliche, but it's true for me

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yes n even today i hate myself n still dont know what my hubby sees in me

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yes n even today i hate myself n still dont know what my hubby sees in me

maybe he loves ya cos you is nice

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Hmmm.. well..

There was this girl who started at my school when we were 14. Tall and built like a brick outhouse. Anyhoo she soon established herself a reputation as a hardnut. She started bullying my friend and a few others and then stretched out her tentacles to include me. Low level stuff. Not too much of a concern.

One day we were walking to one of the school buildings through the park and she ran up behind me with a pair of scissors. Apparently, she was going to try and cut a bit of my hair off. I didn't know this, I just saw this big lummox lumbering toward me brandishing sharp things. Long story short she 'accidently' ran into my fist and broke her nose. I didn't get expelled and she stopped being a bully and we all lived happily ever after.