Annoca - many of us have been where you are now. The loss a a much loved dog is almost unbearable. I still cry for my Murphy all the time. BUT like Jenstar said Remy wold never have wanted you to feel like this, she worked hard to keep you happy and healthy. And I couldn't agree more with Bojangles either. I could never replace Murphy, but we rescued Daphne from a horrible life within a month, a life which could have ended if we hadn't done so, not to mention the nine puppies that she was carrying. She changed our lives for ever by giving us purpose and happiness again. You rescued Remy once from an awful existence and now Remy would want you to do the same for another. To lose Remy at this time of year is especially sad. But this is also the busiest period for animal abandonment. I know it probably feels too soon to be thinking like this but there will be a little dog out there somewhere just waiting for a wonderful new mummy like you so you can look after each other with love and affection. Remember you have many friends on here and we all want to make sure you are happy and safe Annoca.